I love to eat everything I see, is this why I'm so morbidly Obese?

I was spoilt as a child and growing up I was always jealous of my beautiful cousin. She is still beautiful and clever, I mean, she practically raised herself when her dad died. I was quietly happy for her misfortune and used it to manipulate her. Now, I am nothing more than a big obese mess. She has always been a free spirit, whereas I have lead a very covetess life. I am morbidly obese and although I have money, it will never remove the ugliness I have created for myself and my family. I have alot of cousins who are morbidly obese, yet this one isn't, and she continues to live a carefree life. If I had the guts I would just kill myself. Anybody who forgives me, supports my physical, spiritual and mental greed - I deserve to be morbidly obese. I will always continue to manipulate my beautiful cousin, because I know I can. Jealously.