I am a bad person, my heart is broke & it's my fault. What now?

Really i don't know why hes so mad, i could see that if you got the loan during the relationship. But i would just give it some time and maybe he'll come talk about it. He probably just needs to think about it for a while, and if he loves you too as much as you do he should do the right then and keep the relationship strong or if you have to move on there's always someone who will care just as much. Your not a bad person for that either, no ones perfect